Monday, February 25, 2013

Last night at zirca + Avenue Bistro

Finally Year 2 of poly ended. Have been waiting for this to end for quite some time now. Screwed up my paper, it was tough, but i really couldnt study or concentrate much the day before. Got into a fight first time in my life at zirca, like what the fucking fuck.

 I mean its quite funny how pathetic it was, until now i feel like crying and laughing at myself. why these kind of things seems to happen to me only, someone have to just mock me. everytime i trust someone, something just have to remind me on why i shouldnt even trust in the first place.
 should have listened to jess and just went zouk. I cant even wash my face now without feeling the pain. And i know the bruises are just going to get darker each day. Could not even be bothered to conceal them today. Have them all over my legs and elbow. Just feel real miserable right now, dont even feel like talking to a single soul.

Actually i cant really remember much that night, just so messy and conflicting. Was really high that night, on the dance floor, then suddenly my girl friends started to fight on the podium. Club got raid, went out, someone called twin that they saw the group of girls who hit her, saw them outside the taxi stand area, and we started shouting at one another. Guess me and zhiyan was just too mad at the point of time. Weishan and the rest was walking slowly cause they thought the guys was with us. Didnt think, they had like 3 butches in their girl group. Just one punch into my eye and i started to tear but twin was on the floor and they hit her too. Somehow aft the first concussion they cornered us to the lane. First time i got totally drenched by a jug of water, dragged by the hair and hit. Couldnt even see who did it, only Zhiyan hit the hand who was dragging my hair for like what 2 mins? Cheek bled, regina was there to wipe the blood from my cheek. Can never forget who was the ones there for me that night, in my sight, 
the disappointment ,the shoulders, back to the disappointment. 
so much of it. The disappointment hurts more than any physical injuries.

The rage was just too much, it sucks because i am not the kind of perfect sweet girl who will just stand at one side, even though i know the image of me that night was just so uncouth even i feel disgusted by myself, my unsightly actions, so damn gangster, who would love a girl that dont think, dont know my own limits. I dont even know what i was thinking, i couldn't even fight. But recalling the rage i felt that night is scary. 
But until now i dont have any tinge of regret. Because i really did not care if we were outnumbered, someone just hit my bestfriend, she is in pain, pain that i felt, fact that some people stood idle, felt so humiliated, so many eyes was watching, couldnt think properly, couldnt see, everyone was quarreling then some police was near the scene. 

But it totally changed my perceptions of things, to those i actually trusted, to those who earned my respect and gratitude. Im not even blaming anyone right now, its stupid to rant these kind of things on social media, its damn embarrassing. End of the day right now, i just cant help but i dont trust any guys now, people can sms me and say stuff like how much they would help, how sorry, how much they cared. Makes no sense.  After that i cant ever listen to those kind of talk any longer, how many times you scroll through ur twitter timeline and read stuff like
"have fun man, love you bro"
conversations between people who seem like they really care for each other but at the end of the day all links to one word, fake, so darn annoying. annoys me to my brim.
"you look so pretty"

But i really am thankful the girls who was with me n those people who came down. 

  I am so thankful for the anonymous who left me such a long text on formspring. It kinda made my day.The weather matches my mood now. Got to stop this nonsense soon, my eye is already swollen enough. Just going to get this post over and done with. Saturday at zirca was not good at all. Just one night changed so many things. so damn confusing.

phtos which i dont even feel like tagging.

but jess <3

crowd that night



my twin before her facewas was scarred

too damn tired and sad, didnt dare to raise my head in front of my mom the whole day. imagine if she saw me that night, she would be devastated.


i know i will regret posting this. oh i really look like shit.

fight until some girls bracelet on my hand oO

town today w weishan and tricia :)
tricia's damn funny. kinda wished she was there that night, to have another bitch on my side.

linguine and seafood marina yum

guess i have to live w shades for awhile.

watched parker. was quite nice! 
look at the amount of drinks we three girls drank.


xoxo eugeniania

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Paris Baguette + Bella Pizza + Paradise Dynasty + Pique Nique + Zouk

HI guys, as promised, some nice photos w my cam (at the first half of the post only HAHA the rest w my shitty iphone cam..) and blog post coming up right now :) I still feel quite hangover from ytd night at zouk. But holidays and party life is just around the corner and i feel so EXCITED HAHA. even though i have intern so technically speaking my holidays are only one week. you tell me what.

Had paris baguette at wisma w tricia right after my second paper :) love spending time w this girl.

this is how the outlet looks like. they have a few counters at the outlet, which caters to proper meals, cakes, pastries and yummy bread ^^!

spot tricia's birthday cake hehe

so pretty

hahaha my fav royal pudding counter!

huge variety as mentioned, will come back to try somemore :D

what we ordered. Their strawberry crepe cake, 

super yummy bread bowl w seafood chowder!!

and some bacon wrap bread with fillings like egg inside. tricia's fav!

i think their prices are reasonable! all these for only around 22 sgd!

w tricia :)

went shopping around town and cine where i got my new shades :D

coincidentally wore hoodie and jacket tgt 

her ootd

"i want a pair of shades that will make me look nicer without my eyes"

i dont think its working out..

shall end off with a shot from my phone when she was on the phone w ritzzyboy

astons for dinner ^^ at cathay!

hehe yum i like the macaroni and cheese

i forget what is this called. LOL ribeye?

went to cold stone after that. tried my favorite icecream flavor hehe pistachio :)


no makeup day!!

HAHA im starting to think i look quite funny in sunglasses.

went on a food hunt ^^

near studio m hotel :O

camera was running out of batt, thus my shots were damn crooked hahaha something i hate when im going out. loads of italian kind of bistros which all looks yummy along the riverside! you would get distracted!

Went to bella pizza
@ 30 Robertson Quay #01-14
Riverside view singapore
claimed to make one of the best pizzas in singapore by lady iron chef.

the place was quite hard to find!!! despite travelling by car.

sat inside for awhile but
the disadvantage was once they started cooking, their kitchen wasnt sealed so all the smoke would submerge in the air conditioned space. changed our seats outside cause we didnt want to smell like a walking pizza.

unsealed kitchen

page one of their pizza menu

and pasta

would come back again!! tried their salmon pizza was great!

and first time trying squid ink pasta, which i loved! i would come back again to try their other pizza and pasta flavors.

bad thing about squid ink pastas for n a date...........

HAHAHAHA but actually i think i would look quite good in black lipstick, no? zhiyan says i look poisoned LOL. i think these are my fav camera shots of the day, my lips! haha weird fetish i have.

if you followed me on instagram, theres another pic which shows my teeth, much more gross hahaha

ate like a pig...... and their tiramisu cake

not my cup of teaaaa

tried to take a photo in a dirty looking toilet

my ootd
should be the last time wearing this dress.. someone says i look like a grandmother.

breakfast next morning :) i think one of the best chicken/potato pies i ever ate!

took the outlets down. :)

super yummm

and mom bought loads of jelly hearts!

none for you, so much love for me ^^!

a pic of the remains of my birdnest i drank. LOOKS GROSS HAHA


finally worked at A & F
not as stressed, but my fingers do hurt. since i forgot we were not supposed to have nail polish on right before work, and my nails were gelish, so i kinda peeled all of them out otw to work on the mrt LOL
super unglam. and work made my fingers even more sore.

freaking hungry and super happy we ended work ;)

MINIMAL MAKEUP to work, didnt even put anything on my face.

we spend all our work money that day eating..... i dont understand the logic.

had dinner at paradise dynasty again, tricia didnt try here before so we went ;) and to be honest, i was getting real sick of western food for the week.

well known for their colorful xlbs in all flavors~

super nice szechuan beef noodles which numbed my mouth cause of the chilli oil, not spicy for me, but numbing..

had desert at piquenique

super nice sticky date pudding cake with vanilla icecream!!!

and zouk night, wore super casual, my geek topshop crop top.

always complaining i upload unglam photos of her on my blog so here i am uploading shots of myself which i said i wont upload cause i look like a ball but you look nice TWIN SO HERE YOU GO HAHA


freaking happy night with my wing woman my whole clique of besties in my life. hehehe minus tricia though.

with flash HAHA
tessa, weishan, ME DA GEEK, regina. zhiyan, wenmin. 
we totally have no good friends telepathy. all wear like we are from worlds apart.

tessa look like she going disco, weishan erm town? im like a cheerleader!! HAHAHA waves my pompom* fat cheerleader. regina sexy lady la. zhiyan go bai nian? i bought that top for wenmin HAHA

with wenmin who came cause her bf came LOL

hi shan

hi reginaaaa

all took a photo w future CLIQUE BROTHER IN LAW eldin. 
p.s not mine

i like to do this heartshape thing hahahah!

w twin~

oh and they say i look nice smiling in teeth LOL

saw tan minnie and requested some photos, behind the scenes we were all squabbling cause of cig burns and her lollipop was yes, sticky.

hehe regina and eldin ;)

a better shot :)

i look so not maintained here anymore. drank like at least 4 kups of neat, super high, but never die. nor did i feel like vomitting. My liver is offically screwed. I rather be a lousier drinker!

everyone was kind of tipsy and the podium was so squeezy and everything. Had fun, but could be better! I still feel super embarrassed about one thing though, need to take note to myself already.FUCK LOL

end of w some love from wenmin :)

xoxo. rushed post, cause i am going to party at zirca tonight. LAST PARTY OF ZIRCA, how can i miss it.. even if my last exam is on the monday..

lastly watch my newest cover if you havent!!! :) I HAVE NO MAKEUP ON and used my lousy iphone cam.. still.. enjoy! :)